It Is What It Is

It is what it is
I tell myself that.

Over and over again
Same situation arises.

If it is meant for you
It will come your way.

If it is not
Let it go.

Today, I let go
Of some dreams.

Tarot dreams deemed impossible
Due to my overactive daily life.

No complaints
Filled with love.

Filled with career
Filled with family.

Filled with laughter
Filled with good times.

Just filled
No space.

I wanted so badly
To read tarot for you.

I wanted so badly
To read tarot for free.

I am so sorry
To let you down.

Please, please know
They will reach you.

Regardless of who you are
They will reach you when ready.

I feel like I’ve let myself down
But I think I have known this awhile.

Each time I attempt readings
My life crumbles like The Tower.

I have no mental capacity
To do them after work weekly.

I have no mental capacity
To juggle motherhood on top.

I have the capacity
To know my boundaries.

These are them
They are set now.

Tarot readings are a whole different animal
My career has picked up and I am so busy.

I tried so hard to keep my passion strong
But I have no energy left for my family.

I need to choose them
I need to chose work.

Because work
Got me here.

Because family
Got me here.

So I thank you
And wish you luck.

They will reach you
If they haven’t already.

Kaila A. Notto

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Published by The Mindful Millwright

Kaila A. Notto

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